Learn from the mistakes of others

i am calm again.

things will, and they do.

outside, rain begins.

i come home to find i have yet another bookcrossing book to read. michael moore's dude, where's my country? - thanks once more to juciejordan. i have one release and two captures - soon to be two releases, one capture. this will improve. i've got the bug.

i enjoyed meeting daydaze. talking with her has helped me re-think, re-centre. :waves: thanks.

life is good. [even if annoying from time to time]

i am calm again.

things will, and they do.

outside, rain begins.

i come home to find i have yet another bookcrossing book to read. michael moore's dude, where's my country? - thanks once more to juciejordan. i have one release and two captures - soon to be two releases, one capture. this will improve. i've got the bug.

i enjoyed meeting daydaze. talking with her has helped me re-think, re-centre. :waves: thanks.

life is good. [even if annoying from time to time]

Here is your horoscope for Thursday, July 8:
Finesse and refinement are subtle sciences. A small handful of people recognize how good you are at what you do. Your moment will come, slowly but surely. Amuse yourself quietly until then.

amusing. myself. to. death. waiting.

And another:
Today some strong emotions could surface, Steven. Maybe there is a personal situation going on that is driving you a bit crazy. Some tensions could be building up. It will be healthy to address these concerns today. Don't just stuff everything inside and pretend that you are okay. It's important to let your loved ones know what is really on your mind. If you have the courage to clear the air today, healing can begin.

i've already done the 'letting people know what is on my mind' to death. as reminded today.

Here is your horoscope for Thursday, July 8:
Finesse and refinement are subtle sciences. A small handful of people recognize how good you are at what you do. Your moment will come, slowly but surely. Amuse yourself quietly until then.

amusing. myself. to. death. waiting.

And another:
Today some strong emotions could surface, Steven. Maybe there is a personal situation going on that is driving you a bit crazy. Some tensions could be building up. It will be healthy to address these concerns today. Don't just stuff everything inside and pretend that you are okay. It's important to let your loved ones know what is really on your mind. If you have the courage to clear the air today, healing can begin.

i've already done the 'letting people know what is on my mind' to death. as reminded today.

via daydaze

Post a memory of me in the comments. It can be anything you want.
Then, of course, post this to your journal and see what people remember of you.

via daydaze

Post a memory of me in the comments. It can be anything you want.
Then, of course, post this to your journal and see what people remember of you.

Taurus - Your Love Profile

Your positive traits:

You tend to stick with relationships - through the good and the bad.
You are a great listener and tend to give valuable advice.
Cautious and careful, you never jump in recklessly... saving yourself from heartbreak.

yeah, i'm loyal, committed, and cautious. screw the heartbreak, had that. survived.

now i want a gritty, messy, exciting relationship. passion, arguments, going places without a map ... recovering the best parts of me from my twenties, and applying what i've learned since.

Your negative traits:

Money is very important to you, so much so that it's a cause of arguments in relationships.
money is important, but not so much as it used to be ... i can't eat it, nor spend meaningful time with it. money is a vehicle, not a life.

If your lover isn't loyal or attentive enough to you, your eyes start to wander...
if my eyes are wandering, it wouldn't be her fault ... besides, check back with the cautious thing and the loyal thing. and if i'm smitten, i'm smitten deep.

and back to the loyalty thing. if i'm beginning to wander, i talk about it - with her. i'm too goddamn honest to go cheating. that shit is just stupid.

You tend to keep things inside - so your partner may not know when or why you're upset.
these days, i try to talk about things as much as i can - i may not know what, when, or why - but that's no excuse for not trying. hopefully along the way, i am learning - and i will try to give her as much heads up as i can.

Your ideal partner:

Is stable, serious, and ready to be committed to you.
my ideal partner is passionate, engaged with her world, and wants to share it. she's serious, but not that serious - serious about her passion/s, her world, her life. fuck boring. been there, can't do that.

Is successful and able to provide you with the lifestyle you crave.
the lifestyle i crave is a shared life. if by success this means she's happy, then yes successful. dollars ain't the be all and end all of success.

A true romantic, who is willing to express their desire for your heart.
romance, yes. expressive - damn right. her desires, wants, needs, hopes, fears, everything. and prepared to drag me across the tarmac if i ever stop doing the same.

Your dating style:

Comfortable and traditional. You'd love to have a nice meal at a cozy restaurant.
i might like to move slowly - but that's because i'm too damn cautious. fuck it.

i want to get to know her. spend time with her. a nice restaurant is great. a picnic by an open fire is better. a bowl of fruit, and some champagne, in a bath - better still.

Your seduction style:

Love comes first for you before you'd even think of intimacy.
love. well, at least, i need to feel a connection - a strong connection with her. [again with the cautious, i guess.] but how will i know if i'm really connecting if i never try the intimacy. so, yeah - try me.

Traditional: you're not a cold fish - but you're not into kink either.
bah! who needs boring. public displays of affection, for sure.

i'll try anything at least once. maybe twice. could be convinced of a third ... with that smile, and those eyes ... four, five, ...

my problem, my only real probelm, is being uncertain about how to start, to get things going. to overcome my natural tendency to shyness, and caution. i don't want to wake up the next morning and think: "why the fuck didn't i just ask her?" ever again. [doesn't mean i won't, but i really want to get over that shit.]

Pleasing... you always make sure that your partner is having a good time.
key to me having a good time, is her having a good time. no doubt about it.

Tips for the future:

Be willing to change your mind. Who you think is the love of your life may be very wrong for you.
ah, the cautious thing. again.

and, in light of how much i've changed in the past two years - i'm open to new things, new places, new people. most of the people i know now, i've known for less than six months.

and the women i'm attracted to now, quite different too. one or two might be shocked/surprised [but i doubt it, canny buggers that they are.] i've little doubt that i'm transparent. [i'm open to help, guidance, a not so gentle prod.]

Try listening to your mate. While your stubborn streak is hard to break, sometimes your partner knows best.
learned this lesson. at least, i've learned to listen a lot more then i used to listen.

Ligthen up! The first months of a relationship should be about fun, not intentions.
me want the fun. [ok. me crave the fun.] now that i've finally learned how to have fun, and somewhat how to share it. now i want to learn how to do it properly. to let go and trust that it'll all be ok in the morning.


i didn't ask her coz i didn't trust myself. stupid, stupid male.


ok. i'm craving a relationship. sharing, caring. having fun. looking at the world through another's eyes. and in her eyes.

enough of being weird-arse savant. i want to be human. and out there. with someone.

and no, this isn't some pathetic poor me, she hasn't called rant. this is me saying, this is what i want. a challenge to myself, and the universe. turn my life upside down. again.

bring it on.

Taurus - Your Love Profile

Your positive traits:

You tend to stick with relationships - through the good and the bad.
You are a great listener and tend to give valuable advice.
Cautious and careful, you never jump in recklessly... saving yourself from heartbreak.

yeah, i'm loyal, committed, and cautious. screw the heartbreak, had that. survived.

now i want a gritty, messy, exciting relationship. passion, arguments, going places without a map ... recovering the best parts of me from my twenties, and applying what i've learned since.

Your negative traits:

Money is very important to you, so much so that it's a cause of arguments in relationships.
money is important, but not so much as it used to be ... i can't eat it, nor spend meaningful time with it. money is a vehicle, not a life.

If your lover isn't loyal or attentive enough to you, your eyes start to wander...
if my eyes are wandering, it wouldn't be her fault ... besides, check back with the cautious thing and the loyal thing. and if i'm smitten, i'm smitten deep.

and back to the loyalty thing. if i'm beginning to wander, i talk about it - with her. i'm too goddamn honest to go cheating. that shit is just stupid.

You tend to keep things inside - so your partner may not know when or why you're upset.
these days, i try to talk about things as much as i can - i may not know what, when, or why - but that's no excuse for not trying. hopefully along the way, i am learning - and i will try to give her as much heads up as i can.

Your ideal partner:

Is stable, serious, and ready to be committed to you.
my ideal partner is passionate, engaged with her world, and wants to share it. she's serious, but not that serious - serious about her passion/s, her world, her life. fuck boring. been there, can't do that.

Is successful and able to provide you with the lifestyle you crave.
the lifestyle i crave is a shared life. if by success this means she's happy, then yes successful. dollars ain't the be all and end all of success.

A true romantic, who is willing to express their desire for your heart.
romance, yes. expressive - damn right. her desires, wants, needs, hopes, fears, everything. and prepared to drag me across the tarmac if i ever stop doing the same.

Your dating style:

Comfortable and traditional. You'd love to have a nice meal at a cozy restaurant.
i might like to move slowly - but that's because i'm too damn cautious. fuck it.

i want to get to know her. spend time with her. a nice restaurant is great. a picnic by an open fire is better. a bowl of fruit, and some champagne, in a bath - better still.

Your seduction style:

Love comes first for you before you'd even think of intimacy.
love. well, at least, i need to feel a connection - a strong connection with her. [again with the cautious, i guess.] but how will i know if i'm really connecting if i never try the intimacy. so, yeah - try me.

Traditional: you're not a cold fish - but you're not into kink either.
bah! who needs boring. public displays of affection, for sure.

i'll try anything at least once. maybe twice. could be convinced of a third ... with that smile, and those eyes ... four, five, ...

my problem, my only real probelm, is being uncertain about how to start, to get things going. to overcome my natural tendency to shyness, and caution. i don't want to wake up the next morning and think: "why the fuck didn't i just ask her?" ever again. [doesn't mean i won't, but i really want to get over that shit.]

Pleasing... you always make sure that your partner is having a good time.
key to me having a good time, is her having a good time. no doubt about it.

Tips for the future:

Be willing to change your mind. Who you think is the love of your life may be very wrong for you.
ah, the cautious thing. again.

and, in light of how much i've changed in the past two years - i'm open to new things, new places, new people. most of the people i know now, i've known for less than six months.

and the women i'm attracted to now, quite different too. one or two might be shocked/surprised [but i doubt it, canny buggers that they are.] i've little doubt that i'm transparent. [i'm open to help, guidance, a not so gentle prod.]

Try listening to your mate. While your stubborn streak is hard to break, sometimes your partner knows best.
learned this lesson. at least, i've learned to listen a lot more then i used to listen.

Ligthen up! The first months of a relationship should be about fun, not intentions.
me want the fun. [ok. me crave the fun.] now that i've finally learned how to have fun, and somewhat how to share it. now i want to learn how to do it properly. to let go and trust that it'll all be ok in the morning.


i didn't ask her coz i didn't trust myself. stupid, stupid male.


ok. i'm craving a relationship. sharing, caring. having fun. looking at the world through another's eyes. and in her eyes.

enough of being weird-arse savant. i want to be human. and out there. with someone.

and no, this isn't some pathetic poor me, she hasn't called rant. this is me saying, this is what i want. a challenge to myself, and the universe. turn my life upside down. again.

bring it on.