and then i pin down the cause of my unhappiness ...

[maelorin]

in a recent reply to a comment, i managed to sum up what's really pissing me off at the moment.

much is happening at the moment that disturbs me deeply ... i can't help feeling like i'm stuck at a railway siding, watching events unfold in quiet desperation, with a sense of growing dread that while i'm not the only one who's concerned about an impending train-wreck, i find myself excluded and unable to do anything about what i see coming.