Learn from the mistakes of others

there is a huge distinction between liking and loving. like all good chasms, its only a slight move from standing-on-the-edge to falling-into-the-downness.

the trick is to be able to tell that you've fallen :)

when you like someone, you enjoy spending time with them. when you love someone, you they're always with you. your emotional attachment is not just stronger, it is different.

you learn the difference through experience. liking isn't love, neither is a crush, or lust, or dependence, or whatever. the key seems to be that in a pinch, you put the other person before yourself - without thinking about it. you just do it.

if by 'do it for free', is meant i'd enjoy doing it or believe in doing it so much that i'd do it for free. possibly.

but realistically, in a capitalist society, i'd like to be able to do what i love - and be paid to do it. just for a fucking change.

so, what would that be? fucked if i know. have some inklings but there are so many things i've not had a good go at that new stuff just bewilders me.

no. come to think about it. i'd like to be a paid consultant. run my own consultancy firm. not for free.

i get inspired all the time.

then crushed.

the trick seems to be to not realise it. or something. not sure yet.

no.

they argue too much as it is.

kindest? what's this kindest?

there have been many small acts of kindness. i don't rank them.

or remember them all. darn it.

but i'm thankful for each and every one of them.