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maelorin at 01:33am on 26/10/2004
maelorin at 01:33am on 26/10/2004there are upsides to aspieness.
when i am in a moment, i am in the damn moment. fully, completely.
when i am absorbed by something, or someone, i'm fully absorbed. it/they become the whole universe.
when i feel something, it can be all that i feel. the whole.
simple sensations, like a touch, a look, a smile, can become everything.
when i can relax and be in the moment, i can be absorbed in it completely. i do not get distracted at those times.
so when i am sharing with another, they are everything to me.
when i connect, it is strong.
conversely, if the connection breaks ... well, that is the severing of everything.
it hurts. a lot. and the rebuilding can take a long time. each step, each link, painful. it can never be the same, but i do not forget.
i may not always remember, but i never forget.
when i am in a moment, i am in the damn moment. fully, completely.
when i am absorbed by something, or someone, i'm fully absorbed. it/they become the whole universe.
when i feel something, it can be all that i feel. the whole.
simple sensations, like a touch, a look, a smile, can become everything.
when i can relax and be in the moment, i can be absorbed in it completely. i do not get distracted at those times.
so when i am sharing with another, they are everything to me.
when i connect, it is strong.
conversely, if the connection breaks ... well, that is the severing of everything.
it hurts. a lot. and the rebuilding can take a long time. each step, each link, painful. it can never be the same, but i do not forget.
i may not always remember, but i never forget.
contemplative