Learn from the mistakes of others

well howdy, partners ...

been a while.

once again, the past few weeks have been interesting. complex. occasionally confusing. but hey, i'm alive - right; that's what life is.

the past twelve months have been another rollercoaster ride.

• i've clocked up ten associated deaths - the tenth last night. though it seems being my friend is still a pretty safe option. of the ten, only one was a friend. the others included a former client, my son's mother's father's father, and so on.


• i've plunged myself into education education - to finally realise that though i enjoy teaching - trying to fit into the model of a high school teacher just isn't for me.


• i've rummaged through my baggage and found a few more things, ditched a few, and hugged some in close. sometimes it's our flaws that make us who we are.


• i've explored this asperger syndrome thing a bit, and begun to own some of what it means for me.


• i've walked tall, banged my head on a few door frames, and discovered that i'm still prepared to bang my head on a few more - just in case i was wrong the last few hundred times [that was a metaphor. i think.]


• i've found some new friends, and recovered some old ones.

but most of all, i've rediscovered that i'm a tough bastard who can take a kick to the face, get up and try again.

here's to 2005. may it bring us all what we need, and bring us closer to those dreams that we all have.

mine are pretty simple:

1. a job that makes good use of my brain, my education, my talents, and makes me happy


2. a place of my own - i'd like to find out what i'm like living by my self for once.


3. to spend more time with friends, all of my friends.


4. and maybe, just maybe, find a woman who i can share all that with.

if i have a new years resolution at all, it's that i'll keep trying until i die. no way i'm gonna let the bastards beat me for long. and no way i'm gonna let the bastards get my friends down either.