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maelorin at 08:00pm on 26/11/2003
maelorin at 08:00pm on 26/11/2003i have been waiting, waiting, waiting for something to happen in my life for a while now.
a job would be nice. a real one. full-time. that pays market value. and has some scope for career progress.
an answer concerning my thesis - do i get to finish it, or not?
answers to these will give me something to base future plans on.
at the moment i cannot plan. i could, but nothing is certain.
without an income i cannot move out into a place of my own. living with my parents is not ideal ...
without an income i cannot plan for my financial future. most of my meagre income at the moment goes to small payments to creditors that just barely keeps me ahead of the wolves - and does little to move me towards real solvency.
without my thesis, i'm not sure what i will be doing with my time. it has been an anchor through turbulent times, and offered a light at the end of a very long tunnel. i guess i could watch more tv, or get out in the sun more often.
i have realised that i'm beginning ot feel desperately lonely and isolated. much of my old life is gone, and some must be let go. it's not as though i'm without friends or anything. but so much has changed, and so much is just pending. pending.
i want to move on. need to move on. in every sense.
damn, but i'm maudlin tonight.
roll on 2004.
a job would be nice. a real one. full-time. that pays market value. and has some scope for career progress.
an answer concerning my thesis - do i get to finish it, or not?
answers to these will give me something to base future plans on.
at the moment i cannot plan. i could, but nothing is certain.
without an income i cannot move out into a place of my own. living with my parents is not ideal ...
without an income i cannot plan for my financial future. most of my meagre income at the moment goes to small payments to creditors that just barely keeps me ahead of the wolves - and does little to move me towards real solvency.
without my thesis, i'm not sure what i will be doing with my time. it has been an anchor through turbulent times, and offered a light at the end of a very long tunnel. i guess i could watch more tv, or get out in the sun more often.
i have realised that i'm beginning ot feel desperately lonely and isolated. much of my old life is gone, and some must be let go. it's not as though i'm without friends or anything. but so much has changed, and so much is just pending. pending.
i want to move on. need to move on. in every sense.
damn, but i'm maudlin tonight.
roll on 2004.
melancholy