Learn from the mistakes of others

life.

it has ups. and downs.

i finally figure out how to tap into emotions, and i get a roller-coaster ride. i feel like a teenager all over again ... and it was bad enough the first time round.

i sometimes wonder if i'll ever have lasting happiness.

i have moments, days, of bliss. then weeks of shitty, crappy, what-the-fuck-is-going-on-ness ...

ah. fuck. i probably shouldn't drink when i'm feeling like this.

Delirium featuring Sarah McLachlan
Silence

Give me release
witness me
I am outside
give me peace

Heaven holds a sense of wonder
and I wanted to believe
that I'd get caught up
when the rage in me subsides

In this white wave
I am sinking
in this silence
in this white wave
in this silence
I believe

Passion chokes the flower
'til she cries no more
possessing all the beauty
hungry still for more

Heaven holds a sense of wonder
and I wanted to believe
that I'd get caught up
when the rage in me subsides

I can't help this longing
comfort me
I can't hold it all in
if you won't let me

Heaven holds a sense of wonder
and I wanted to believe
that I'd get caught up
when the rage in me subsides

In this white wave
I am sinking
in this silence
in this white wave
in this silence
I believe

I have seen you
in this white wave
you are silent
you are breathing
in this white wave
I am free