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maelorin at 11:06am on 05/10/2004
maelorin at 11:06am on 05/10/2004last night's melancholia was not about anyone in particular.
this whole 'getting in touch with your feelings' bizzo is darn disconcerting sometimes.
and i'm trying not to post a long series of quizzes and whatnot.
it was nothing to do with anyone, at least not directly. [should be an interesting session with ms counsellor today]
emotions. bloody confusing, complicated, crazy, distracting, disturbing ... gh'ah! wouldn't be human without them. [there are times i wonder if the chip can be removed. or the interface rewired.]
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i don't recommend repeating/reliving/revisiting one's teens. fifteen was bad enough the first time.
this whole 'getting in touch with your feelings' bizzo is darn disconcerting sometimes.
and i'm trying not to post a long series of quizzes and whatnot.
it was nothing to do with anyone, at least not directly. [should be an interesting session with ms counsellor today]
emotions. bloody confusing, complicated, crazy, distracting, disturbing ... gh'ah! wouldn't be human without them. [there are times i wonder if the chip can be removed. or the interface rewired.]
my love to
ser_kai, unmercifulelf, daydaze, juciejordan, jingdono, willowwolf, vixstar, red_moon_vixen, polimar, onia, obsoletechild, haunted_riddle, enkorvaks, denizenz, childe_of_fate, anotherjen ... and all my other friends who read my lj.i don't recommend repeating/reliving/revisiting one's teens. fifteen was bad enough the first time.
crappy
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i feel ya on this one lately. (no pun intended.) emotions are tricky business. just when you think you understand how you feel about something, a particular scent or a certain angle of light will knock you completely off balance with a memory you had almost just escaped.
dangerous territory indeed.
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even with foreknowledge, i don't think either of us anticipated the genies in this bottle.
ms counsellor is pretty good at what she does, but i am the first 'socially functional' aspie she's had on the couch. i've been so 'clinical' in my self-assessment, etc, that when the monster wakes it has caught both of us by surprise.
on the plus side, they're not only there, but i am getting better at connecting and expressing my emotions.
downside. i'm wading through a mess of old and new. and it isn't easy to distinguish between them. for now, i'm just taking things as they come - riding the waves until i reach a harbour somewhere, sometime.
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Damn'd chip.
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damnation!
out, out damned chip!
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the counselling is something like the reverse. but in no particular chronological order.
ms c: "are there any issues concerning your mother that you'd like to talk about."
maelorin: "no."
ms c: "ok. we'll start there then ..."
[can't wait 'til we get to "so, school" ...]
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