Learn from the mistakes of others

copied from red_moon_vixen


I WANT: a career, stability, a relationship, happiness, health and wealth.

I HAVE: prospects for a career.

I REGRET: only a few things. and only things that i could have done differently had i been more corageous at the time.

I WISH... for forgiveness, for love.

I LOVE... life. and hope.

I HATE... nothing. not worth the energy. there are things and people i wish were different. there are people i'm glad are not in my life anymore.

I MISS... companionship. closeness. sharing. intimacy.

I FEAR... lonliness. big time.


*LAST TIME I*

SMILED? i think i remembered to smile today. pretty sure.

CRIED? a while back. was pretty fucked up at the time.

BOUGHT SOMETHING? today. gotta eat.

KISSED SOMEONE? ah. oh. er. thursday? yeah. a good day.

HAD A DREAM? last night. as usual.


*LAST*

THING I READ? the preceeding words :) less nerdy answer would have to be australian governemnt immigraiton policy. ok. perhaps that was more nerdy.

PHONE NUMBER I CALLED? dunno. don't call too many these days. did sms a few people. dunno who was last though.

LAST SONG I HEARD? chicks on speed - kaltes klares wasser.

THING I ATE? jacket potatoes with sour cream, cheese, and condiments. was good.


*DO I*

SMOKE? no!

DO DRUGS? only medication.

HAVE A CRUSH? yeah.

HAVE A BOYFRIEND/GIRLFRIEND? i wish (see above)

HAVE A DREAM THAT KEEPS COMING BACK? several. mostly relating to my desires

REMEMBER YOUR FIRST LOVE? vaguely. was in year 9. many, many years ago. she was a cute honey-blonde kiwi tomboy. i still like tomboys. especially if they're cute ;)

HAVE ANY GAY, BISEXUAL OR LESBIAN FRIENDS? yep.

BELIEVE IN MIRACLES? not exactly.

BELIEVE IT'S POSSIBLE TO REMAIN FAITHFUL FOREVER? forever is a very long time. for a lifetime, yes.

BELIEVE IN GOD? gods. goddesses. and so on and so forth. i'm an animist.

HAVE ANY SECRETS? yes.

HAVE ANY PETS? yes. a maine coon cat called wolframite/wolfie. but he lives with my ex-wife and my son. my cat is very happy there. [both myself and my housemate are allergic to him. the housemate is the only reason wolfie's not with me.]

GO TO OR PLAN TO GO TO UNIVERSITY? yes. been. been back. still there.

HAVE ANY PIERCINGS? no at the moment. not had any decorative piercings.

HAVE ANY TATTOOS? no. kinda thinking of possibility though.

HAVE A 'BEST' FRIEND? no. though have some who might become close friends.

CARE ABOUT LOOKS? yes and no. generally no.

TRUST OTHERS EASILY? yes. and no. trust easily to a point. real intimacy requires more.

WHO -- TRUST THE MOST? me. working on a few others.